Zz.

Well, it’s time to stop worrying about things I can’t control, and it’s time to stop pulling my hair out over all this shit with the web site. Obviously this is happening for some inscrutable karmic reason [one tells oneself], so I need to go with the flow. I wonder if I’ll ever be caught up on the Lab’s mail, much less my own personal correspondence.

I wonder if the DNS problem will right itself before any more email-related damage can occur. I’ve felt so oddly shut off from the world since this nightmare started; I can’t even imagine what it would be like to have functioning communications again.

It’s 2am, and I’m finally finished pulling all of our old stuff off of the papow site. I didn’t realize how much weird junk a server could accumulate. There’s tons of weird, stray web pages that I wrote, old photos, journal entries. It was like looking through a digitized attic.

Too tired to do much of anything right now, but I’m still too wound up to go to sleep. Thus, the Friday 5:

1. List five things you’d like to accomplish by the end of the year.
Getting back to the gym regularly.
Putting all of my personal accounts, the Lab, and my household in order.
Find an artist for the comic.
Repainting the living room.
One more tattoo before the New Year.

2. List five people you’ve lost contact with that you’d like to hear from again.
Jennifer, a close friend from 6th grade that I miss.
Julius, almost a brother to me for most of my adolescence. I think he’s a deputy DA in San Diego County now.
Julie, my best friend from elementary school. Simply because I’m curious as to how she’s doing.
Rene, an ex from high school. No romantic intentions whatsoever. Again, just curiosity.
Vanessa, another friend from junior high. For some reason I’ve thought about her a few times recently.

3. List five things you’d like to learn how to do.
Speak Italian.
Complex Zippo tricks.
Fencing.
Goaltending.
T’ai chi.

4. List five things you’d do if you won the lottery (no limit).
Buy a better mattress.
Buy a house with a yard large enough to make my dogs happy, and enough room within the home to give Ted and I our space.
Actually hire someone to tie the sinew on these fuckin’ sample vials!
Go on holiday for longer than a weekend.
Paint Bessie [my truck] black cherry. So pimp.

5. List five things you do that help you relax.
The Fourfold Breath Exercise.
Banishing.
Reading.
Petting my dogs.
Petting Ted.